Thursday, December 14, 2006
right here.
but you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
you always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
and if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting...
stained with coffee at 10:33 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
indecision.
been thinking about how "i dunno" and "anything" seem to be a part of daily speech now. or hourly speech. or even minute-ly speech. seems like we get more and more indecisive as we get older, or maybe we're just trying to take everyone's opinion into consideration (more often than not that's just a lie that you tell yourself everytime you spout those words). and it's not really a good thing to be doing, since in the end, more often than not, decisions take longer and longer to be made, and time is lost, time that can be used to do other things.
i think "i dunno" is really more of a way of buying time for yourself to think, but why can't one just say "give me a minute, let me think about it" or something. "i dunno" is really something that just irritates people, i think, cuz the fact that a question was directed to you means they expect you to answer it. and more often than not you do have the answer, just that you can't really be bothered to think it through. one of the most irritating times to use "i dunno" is when you've just said something that answers the question, since the other party doesn't know whether what you just said was utter and total bullshit.
"anything" is more a way of avoiding making decisions altogether, and shoving it off to someone else. i) it's irritating, ii) it doesn't get anything done and iii) it puts a great responsibility on the other party to read your mind. cuz you obviously have a preference but you just i) don't bother thinking about it or ii) don't really like the person asking you the question and just want to piss him/her/it off.
and then i was thinking too about what whao said about the "centre of power" and how those in authority, if they don't use the power given them, tend to lose it. and how indecision really affects this centre of power thing. cuz if the one in authority spouts "i dunno" and "anything" and "it depends" all the time, it i) undermines his/her/its own authority and ii) makes his/her/its "followers"
confused and
frustrated.
confused because some of them have no idea what to do as well, and are looking to the leader to do something, since he/she/it's supposed to have superior skills/knowledge on how to handle the situation.
frustrated because some of them have their own ideas of what should be done, and are keeping it inside because i) they believe that the leader knows what they're thinking and should just get on with it and stop stalling or ii) they don't want to say anything in public because they believe it will further undermine his/her/its authority, and may get he/she/it upset because you're interfering in their "territory". what makes it even harder is when the leader is also your friend, and you don't want to tell him to his face that he's not doing enough or he should just stop fooling around and get the job done, since it isn't a very nice thing to do.
of cousrse it might be that some are just more cautios in the leadership department, and (when i try) i'm just a little to headstrong and sometimes a little rash. but sometimes when deadlines are near things just have to be done, and i think leaders shouldn't be afraid to use their authority sometimes, even if it might hurt the pride of others a little, or may contradict the beliefs of others. since the leader should be, after all, fully trustworthy and has the confidence of his "followers".
just a little food for thought.
stained with coffee at 10:45 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
perfectionism.
i think i'm too perfectionist. so what if my banoffee pie today didn't turn out so well. i shouldn't feel so down. rarr. oh well there's always next time to do better. hee (:
stained with coffee at 6:19 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
adventure no. 1: cod fish stew.
so i finally started on my cooking today! go me. haha. well it turned out pretty good actually, and pretty filling too. should probably try getting more fragrant white wine and work on the presentation a little, but otherwise it was really enjoyable. haha. but cleaning up is still a bugger >.< sorry no photos. i) i don't usually post photos anyway and ii) i did say i need to work on presentation. i think i'll try something else soon. maybe sunday (:
well in other news the dec 16 carolling is coming up really really fast! well we did manage to finalise the songs today. but it's still gonna be quite rush getting prac done and all. hopefully we all can stay focused and do our work! well it'll be tiring but i guess it'll be rewarding too! hopefully we get some cash out of this. and no, that's not exactly the reward i was talking about, but it'll be nice ((:
okay that's all. for now anyway.
stained with coffee at 7:02 PM
