Coffee&Stained

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

slp pls. hurr.

hmm today was quite a fulfilling day. i actually managed to stay awake through all the lessons, with only one cup of coffee in the morning. well of course today was quite a slack day larh but still, quite a feat ^.^

physics test came back today. 24/35. not bad larh. could be better if i hadn't made strange careless mistakes like forgetting to square the 2-pi and only squaring the frequency. and plugging in the wrong graph. but oh well. still quite decent.

i think the lecturer's quite cool. cheemeng said that his physics won't be in such a horrid state if this lecturer took us for all lectures. i guess i'm a little inclined to agree with him.

pe was sad.. we didn't get to play soccer. hurr. and the teams were actually quite balanced today.. cuz only 3 dudes from the other class were taking pe, so our class had to split. of course wongli will totally disagree about this point but nevermind :P

got the choir scores today. need to look through them before tmr but i really really need sleep (almost overslept on the bus today). rarr. well i'll see what i can do. ^.^

stained with coffee at 7:53 PM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

how often we forget.

"...On his weekly visit, my grandfather would squeeze my puny arm - for I was not eating and was losing weight - and say 'Eat, you must eat.' He would look at me with his kindly eyes, and then not know what else ot say.

The hardy immigrant who, during his lifetime, had survived an arduous sea journey, the Japanese occupation, and all kinds of hardship, coul dnot understand why this grandson, who had the benefit of an education, who never had to suffer, was now suffering.

'Eat, grow strong,' was all he could offer.

...

Now, as I trace with my finger the inscription of his name on the cool marble, I realise this is the legacy he has left me: to learn to be strong, to be unafraid, to take change as it comes, and to live a life that is committed to at least one thing - to work, the family or the community."
- Richard Lim in Got Singapore, pg 40-41

"Remember that I have commanded you to be determined and confident! Do not be afraid or discouraged, for I, the LORD your God, am with you wherever you go."
- Joshua 1:9

"Simon Peter answered him, 'Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
- John 6:68-69

stained with coffee at 11:13 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

it's just pain.

don't underestimate the power of alcohol in making a bad day seem better than it is.

and when all is said and done, you're still one hell of a girl.

stained with coffee at 8:49 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

what hurts the most.

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do.

everything happens according to God's plan, doesn't it? but then we have free will as well. what if we choose wrong? and things slip by us? is it still God's plan then?

stained with coffee at 12:13 AM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

hooked on coldplay.

look at the stars, look how they shine for you
and all the things you do

yellow is an awfully nice song. and awfully hard to play too. i mean. the chords are easy enough but when you try to play it more authentically, you end up trying to play barred esus4 and d chords which are really really strange. oh well. practice and practice i guess. haha.

come up to meet you
tell you i'm sorry
you don't know how lovely you are.

i had to find you
tell you i need you
tell you i set you apart.

the scientist is cool. but i keep forgetting the lyrics. and it gets kinda draggy sometimes. haha. well if i made an MV of myself i'll probably use coldplay anyway. cuz it kinda starts with piano and then guit and then. oh well. but the MV for the scientist is quite cool. the coldplay one.

x&y wasn't a very nice album. hurr. but fix you is nice. and til kingdom come. the hidden track. okay this is a random post.

tomorrow is wednesday. i used to look forward to wednesdays. now i just dread them. and it's all because of you.

and you know, for you i'd bleed myself dry.

ps. does anyone have chasing cars by snow patrol? i want ^^"

stained with coffee at 10:05 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

nothing like bitter laughter.

you know sometimes you just read little angsty posts. and you end up laughing. cuz they just sound so ridiculous. and you can't believe people really go about doing all this kind of thing.

but then i realise, sometimes i'm not laughing cuz it's ridiculous. i'm laughing cuz it's just all too true. king of angst? hell no. but sometimes you just feel like there's a little kinship with others, and you feel somewhat comforted by the fact that there's someone else out there who seems to go through everything you feel. kindred spirits, or whatever not. whatever rot, more like.

[edit]

okay that was really quite funny.

stained with coffee at 9:18 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

whee.

haha. today's pe was pretty fun. i think ballroom dancing and i go hand in hand. err okay not really but nevermind. haha. sue's a great partner (excuse me, heng :P) and well. yeah (= so strange though we got picked as demonstration pair cuz the teacher says we got symmetry and good movement and i suppose we're just good lar (= okay. nevermind i shall stop here.

anyway i was feeling kinda blue just now when i got home (same reason as a few days back and for the past month or so i guess). but i found this little thing called "the blue day book" in my cupboard. haha. and so i'm not blue anymore ^.^ so um. if anyone's feeling blue just tell me and i'll let you see it and then you'll be happy too. whee. okay back to work. random post.

stained with coffee at 11:03 PM

Monday, August 14, 2006

word of the day.

was thinking about things on the way back from mass and dinner today, and the word just popped into my mind. so well. i guess i'll share it. haha.

TENACIOUS - (adj) stubbornly unyielding; "dogged persistence"; "dour determination"

well. just interesting.

anyway. i realise i've really been looking at things the wrong way the past few weeks. just because labours don't yield the results you want them to doesn't mean you should just stop. cuz who knows. determination and perseverance will definitely get you somewhere. and even if, in the end, you still fail, at least you can look back and say "i tried", and feel better about the whole thing.

and while there may be some things i want that i can't seem to get, well, there's only one thing i really need. God's love. and that is something that will never go lacking. and whatever life throws at me, i'll just hold on to this, and i realise that if i do, then nothing can really ever get me down. ^^" cheers.

stained with coffee at 10:13 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

i should stop doing these.

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.
And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone must delve beyond your appearance.

You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.
You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

hmmm well. i think the last para is really quite me. haha.
okay acutally the rest of those i try come up with very un-me things. so nevermind. haha.

stained with coffee at 8:51 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

sometimes you can't make it on your own.

Who Should Paint You: M.C. Escher

Open and raw, you would let your true self show for your portrait.
And even if your painting turned out a bit dark, it would be honest.

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

Hmmm well this was interesting. M.C. Escher was a Dutch graphic artist known for his often mathematically inspired woodcuts, lithographs and mezzotints which feature impossible constructions, explorations of infinity, and tessellations.

Impossible constructions indeed. Go check them out they're quite cool.. maths applied to arts. Exciting.

stained with coffee at 9:15 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

all the world's ~~a stage~~ angsty.

i never noticed how much angst there is in the world today. and how much angst i really contribute to the global output. like seriously. okay last week was like the peak output of the year for me or something. and maybe some people got put off. i guess i could attribute it to being drained due to lack of sleep, cuz we all know that our silent fortresses and walls and defences that we build around our inner selves just crumble when we can't find the energy to keep them up. well as gerard says it's all a facade. and sometimes you just lack the energy to maintain it. and that's when everything just comes out.

oddly though, it seems that once you've gotten past that stage and built back your walls, all that emotional outburst is just so ridiculous it makes you want to laugh at your total immaturity. seriously, sometimes teenage angst and toddler temper tantrums (whoa what alliteration, and what great literary effects created) just have too much in common.

funny thing is though, even though you know it's silliness, you always somehow end up doing the same things over and over and over again. well i do anyway. and seriously, i think emotional maturity is a long long way from me. and i might need to develop it before i start on the road to anywhere.

anyway, speaking about global output of angst. i was really thinking of how inefficient this makes you. like. you end up spending ages and ages angsting and emo-ing out, and you just get distracted from all the more important things, like CCA, studies, personal development etc. (i don't think writing angst poetry is really a good personal development).

so i was just thinking. maybe i should make that long trek back up the mountain again. and take over whao's residence there (he seems to be moving out anyway). and gain some emotional enlightenment there before climbing back down again.

then maybe when i look back at this, i might actually have something more than just angst to remember.

stained with coffee at 11:42 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

respect

well some people think that certain people have to be accorded respect cuz of their position, and others think that whoever it is, respect has to be earned.

i think that both views hold true. esp for people in authority, the position has to be accorded respect.

but if whoever is in authority abuses her/his power or acts in a manner that does not deserve respect, then respect can be lost.

and really, once respect is lost its twice as hard to earn it back.

stained with coffee at 10:24 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

good things never last.

i was going to blog last night about how silly my angsty post was.

but i guess now i realise.

that good moods just don't last.

and in the end you just end up feeling the same.

whether it takes an hour or a day, you just end up feeling like shit all over again.

but is the fault really all my own i wonder.

stained with coffee at 5:46 PM