Sunday, February 27, 2005
je suis malade
but i don't know what's wrong with me. murr. jus been really lethargic these few days. prone to bouts of depression and frustration over things i normally don't really get pissed about. like ying yong wens and ridiculously unsolvable maths questions and the like. and basically everything else. usually i just say "heck" and move on but nowadays i'm like "screw why am i so useless" and then i just go off somewhere and brood. so this whole weekend i haven't done anything about work so far. it's not even like play too hard neva work hard enough [which is normal weekend routine] cuz now my comp is down and i'm using my dad's laptop. it's never play never work just sit around and feel pissed. but at least i've sorta managed some other stuff larh. like playing my out-of-practice piano [i have a repretoire of 1 fluent piece haha] and going running. its quite surprising how much you can push yourself when you're feeling down lolx.
well anyway. nothing of interest has really happened these days. commenced my vocal lessons with mr toh. hmm. seems like i've really been doing quite a lot of stuff wrongly ><". but i can hit an F!! wahahaha. means i have almost 2 octaves worth of chest voice. haha. syf is sort of around the corner. but i feel like i haven't done much as an SL. maybe i'm too nice or something haha. keep saying "please do this" and "please do that" but nobody really cares and i don't wanna repeat over and over again cuz we'll just waste time and we'll not get anything done. maybe i should really change my mindset. and like. really drill them. even though that's evil. okay fine so people here reading my blog won't really be interested in all this stuff right. anyway. just hope we'll be able to do fine. and not forgetting the int'l comp ><". so much work to do. guess i'll better get to it.
stained with coffee at 6:20 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
what am i to you? - norah jones
what am i to you?
tell me darlin' true
to me you are the sea
vast as you can be
and deep the shade of blue
when you're feelin' low
to whom else do you go?
i'd cry if you hurt
i'd give you my last shirt
because i love you so
now if my sky should fall
would you even call?
i've opened up my heart
i never want to part
i'm givin' you the ball
when i look in you eyes
i can feel the butterflies
i'll love you when you're blue
but tell me darlin' true
what am i to you?
if my sky should fall
would you even call?
i've opened up my heart
i never wanna part
i'm givin' you the ball
when i look into your eyes
i can feel the butterflies
could you find a love in me?
would you carve me in a tree?
don't fill my heart with lies
i will love you when you're blue
but tell me darlin' true
what am i to you?
stained with coffee at 9:10 PM
in the heat of summer sunshine
i miss you
like nobody else
stained with coffee at 5:23 AM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
goodbye - the corrs
i never thought one day you'd be gone
away forever more
no one can say, no one could explain
why you were taken
where are you now?
could I get there somehow?
it's time to say goodbye
block out the sun and pack up the sky
don't let my tears start to make you cry
each time I try to say my goodbye
try to stop asking why
tell me it's true tell me there's something more
another time for love
one day I'll know, one day I'll be there
will you be waiting
where you are now?
could I get there somehow?
it's time to say goodbye
block out the sun and pack up the sky
don't let my tears start to make you cry
each time I try to say my goodbye
try to stop asking why
try to stop asking why
where are you now?
can I get there somehow?
it's time to say goodbye
block out the sun and pack up the sky
don't let my tears start to make you cry
each time I try to say my goobye
i try to stop asking why, why
i try to say my goodbye
stained with coffee at 12:04 AM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
everything that has a beginning has an end.
but why must the endings always be sad and unhappy? i'm so sick and tired.
stained with coffee at 2:41 AM
Monday, February 14, 2005
there's no point crying. she won't even notice your tears.
stained with coffee at 12:06 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
you raise me up.
yay. wonderful end to the hol. or almost-end since there's still tomorrow. hahaha. yay. i'm in a damn high mood today.
well, firstly, went to mrs yak's hse to do the GeoSouvenir for the sph geog quiz thing. i'm the only sec4 stuck with all the sec3s ><" and i'm noob. this is my first sph quiz lorh. haha. but we're getting along pretty well after a rather cold start ^^". yay. haha. i think our souvenir rawkz. must really thank fuzzy wuzy [zhuoyi, for those of u who dunno] cuz it was really his idea. he should be in sph! hmph. but thank God he wuz there to help us ^^". after that went to darrell tan's hse for his cny party. it wuz so coolio haha. zy came along for a while cuz he wuz bored lolx. a few ri softballers were there [mark tang, yip, and some-guy-whose-name-i-didnt-really-get] and rg softballers too [xian hui and angela, if i'm not mistaken.]. we watched white chicks [damn lame stupid farnie wuliao show haha] then had dinner and played some cards. then sam and guapoo and huiling [?] and felicia came and we played sam's funk3h tapping game before the rg softballers left. then after that went upstairs to darrell's rm to fool ard. we "appreciated" darrell's musical "talents" [damn farnie lolx. every1 wuz suaning him] then got down to truth or dare. the dares were the usual kind of stuff that happens when teenage guys and gals get together and try and saboh each other with the ppl they like haha. racked up alot on darrell's phone bill calling people lolx. and having such a good laugh. darrell tan really can't sing to impress any member of the opposite sex lolx. i wuz the last one to tio. and i got the same treatment as darrell tan lolx. yea. the ppl who come here [if there are any left] should know who i had to call and sing to larh. haha. but it wuz really fun. after the initial jitters it was really enjoyable.
it was a beautiful song to a beautiful person. and i hoped that person liked it ^^". you raise me up
so i can stand on mountains,
you raise me up
to walk on stormy seas,
i am strong, when i am on your shoulders,
you raise me up
to more than i can be.to that beautiful person :
it was more than just a dare that i did today. it was. i think the dare just took away any excuse i had to put off what i really wanted to say for so long but was too scared to. as i said above, i was quite scared when i called. but when the song started it was really. i dunno how to say larh. i felt really good singing it. and it really ended the day on a really high note. so i'd just like you to know that i meant everything that you heard, and i thank you for making my day a special one.
stained with coffee at 11:19 PM
CNY
well. the long long holiday is drawing to a close... that sux. haha. haven't done anything much about my workload yet but heck about it first. there's always tmr ^^".
cny seems to be getting so.. routine. its getting boring. ><". it's always visit the same places and see the same people who ask you the same thing [usually you're in what sec now and other things about school work which you don't wanna even THINK about during the hol] and then just generally leave you alone for the rest of the day until you go home.
my life seems to have become very.. stagnant? not really quite the word. but i guess it'll have to suffice. there isn't any "life" in my life. it's just. routine. and getting boring. problem is, i never really do anything to change it. never go out to dinner with anyone after school, never do anything unexpected or un-routine-ish, just the same old thing over and over. i think that's y other people seem to have so much to blog about. cuz they do interesting stuff. not like me. ><''. oh well. haha. i'm getting depressed. murr. lolx.
stained with coffee at 9:09 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Long Time No See
haha. hi. very long since my last post hasn't it. like. 1 1/2 months? coolio. can't really say i haven't had time to blog yarh? but then can't really say i've had that much free time anyway. am i making sense? i guess not. lolx. murr.
AnYwAyyy....
the year so far has been quite a good one larh. but really stressful. with all the preparations for the concert [which i will cover later ^^"] and all the overdue academic work and everything lolx. i thought life was quite stressful last already but i guess i was wrong. and i'm wondering if i've bitten off more than i can chew, with 10 subs and vice-chairmanship and umpteen million other commitments. i guess only time will tell... oh well this is turning into some deep philosophical thing. haha. i guess i'll abandon this line of thought for a while.
In Song We Unite
Yea! concert totally rawked. i can't believe we actually pulled it off. after the first two songs i wuz really like.... "is this really the raffles-voices i know?" goodness it sounded really so goooooooood. but then it sort of went downhill after that ><". so sad right. Le Baylere was really sad case.... cuz on rehersals the night before it was really so beautiful... but then we killed it during performance! murr. don't need to say anything about pok pok alimpako. we really hit rock bottom on jaako kulta. [i am skipping the disgusting ensemble failure ><"]. but after that at least things started to go upwards again. haha. yay. in song we unite totally rawked. the song, that is. and the school anthem. totally ownz. haha. but i'm really glad for all the lessons that i have learnt from this concert. yay. hopefully it will be beneficial to my life in the future. ^^". and thanx all of you who came down to support!!! yeah. there's nothing better than having a full-hse concert for us Performing Arts grps and we can't really thank all of you enuff ^^". and thanx denise for the flower. i like it ^^".
and so um. life goes on? haha. i dunno. i've lost my skill for blogging liaox. lolx. hopefully since the concert is over i'll be able to relax a little ^^". sounds like an inviting prospect. and um. i guess that there's always going to be so much that i really wanna do [just like any other person]. but i really have to know when to say "all right, that's enough" so that i don't burn myself out and all. cuz sometimes we always think about what we want to achieve that we always push other people onto the shelf and heck care about them and stuff like that. so um. if i've been doing that to u sry k? haha. reflections on my life. maybe that should be the title for this post. lolx. alrite enough. haha. i'm getting a little depressed now ><".
stained with coffee at 4:25 PM
