Thursday, November 30, 2006
strange.
i really can't believe how i lapse into such strange moods and end up blogging such strange angsty emo nonsense. must have been just too tired from all the carolling and travelling and watching amazing race asia (go singapore! okay nevermind). anyway. the rest of the lyrics.
Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay
stained with coffee at 1:55 PM
what scares me the most.
is that you might think that nothing's happened, and that we're still where we were before. wherever that was. even though it's pretty obvious to me that you're slightly over a million miles away.
it's okay to be angry and never let go
it only gets harder, the more that you know
when you get lonely, when no one's around,
you know that i'll catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone
and i know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday i will you again
and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend..
stained with coffee at 2:07 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006
two concerts and a cookbook.
friday's tj choir concert was
torturous deplorable not too good. but their girls' gowns are pretty nice. gown committee, take a hint. hee.
sunday's concert was pretty awesome. although it did feel like mr toh's choral festival part 2, with the combined choir at the end. but pretty decent (even though it was pretty short). he's right, we really have much to fear from cj. haha. and their sops (esp the glory manger soloist!! <33) sound really really good. rv was pretty good too, dunman didn't wow so much though. but really, most awesome moment was the glory manger solo. hee.
borrowed a cookbook today! jamie's kitchen by jamie oliver.
you your mom might have watched his show before. i think he's pretty funky. hopefully i'll actually get down to cooking something this hols. hee.
i notice all my paras ended with "hee". isn't that interesting. well dinnertime. ciao.
p.s. i seem to have found my voice somewhere since sat. i feel good ^.^
stained with coffee at 7:28 PM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
three guys, a girl and a mind cafe.
well it was quite an interesting day today. which sees me spend around 40 bucks, which is really quite a lot, no? hmm. lets see.
morning: went to recce the council canteen today. met chin ee for breakfast in the morning at macs (which was the start of the "spending spree"), then went ntuc to check prices for utensils and stuff. had an hour plus of brainstorming at s11 while waiting for chinee's tjc friend to come with the tickets (he was about 30min late), and managed to come up with a whole lot of cool ideas for special night. sadly after meeting whao and scouting out the council canteen most of them are now either 1) in the dustbin or 2) on special review. cuz we're not sure if we want class (which i am for, and probably chin ee) or no class (which whao is for. since he thinks steamboat is all about noise and heck about the decor). hopefully can thrash something out by tmr.
after that went to see rv prac. we were made to make some inspirational speeches which didn't turn out too well, but nice to see the juniors again. and well i guess i still can relate to them a little huh. dozed off a little sitting at the back listening to them prac (well im not used to 4hr nights), debated on going to visit nikki's workplace, going for lunch, going to watch step up, and staying until the end of prac. ended up leaving about 245 for lunch, which was expensive and quite cheat money.
afternoon: went out with the YI dudes (well 3 of them anyway, hence the title) in the afternoon. supposed to meet at 4, but we ended up meeting about 545 instead. cuz everyone was late (except me, which i find both admirable and extremely stupid). everyone gave the rain as an excuse, and surprisingly it was the guys (leon and jacob) who were much later than the girl (fran). um. sat around like some delinquent at dhoby ghaut for half an hour before fran came, and then we sat there delinquently for another half hour waiting for jacob. went to grab some food since fran was hungry. and leon appeared at 545 (well done!).
went to mind cafe, which is some cool place where you get to play all kinds of interesting board games, and they serve food and drinks which were pretty decent too. stayed there for about 3 hrs, and after that we were all kinda tired and drained. played some "memory" thing that turned out to be pretty hard, some brainless monkey-pickup-sticks thing, another brainless balancing thing and the last game (which lasted 1.5 hrs) was some interesting thing where you gained points by joining up forests, plains and rivers (it'll take a while to explain). game was called carcassone if anyone is interested. i recommend it haha. it's really cool. bill wasn't too cool, but oh well, nothing like an evening/night out with friends. and i still managed to connect with them i guess, which was really nice.
night: well now i have to do work. which i don't feel like doing. oh well. go me.
[edit] i have a lunch date on fri! okay nothing so exciting. just lunch with an old friend. haha. [/edit]
stained with coffee at 11:19 PM
early morning football ii.
hee. i dunno how people get so attached to football clubs which are like. half a world away. and how they can get so tensed up when their team is down and how euphoric it feels when they come back to win the match. well that's kinda what happened to me today. lolx. anw i think theo walcott is my new hero. haha. he's too good alr. england's new sensation. cool. so now with the football, guitar playing and mosquito bites keeping me awake i guess i'll leave early to school. but not before leaving a song.. hee.
everything - lifehouse
find me here
and speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
cause you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything
everything
you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything
everything
you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything
everything
you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything
everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
stained with coffee at 6:58 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
distance.
how is it that some old friends can just click even after so long, while some friendships die just afer a few weeks of being on the shelf? i must say that i'm one who takes many friendships for granted, thinking that if they're there at night before i go to sleep they'd still be there in the morning when i wake. but somehow it doesn't work that way, does it? and sometimes distances stretch so far, it's hard to find a way back to where we all were before. so i guess these few months i've been deceiving myself. it really IS mostly my fault, never bothering to really put much effort into maintaining relationships. and now that we're so far apart, it feels so awkward reminding you even of my existence. so i guess some things just have to be buried, some memories forgotten, and i'll just have to put my boots back on and walk on. i always had such fanciful ideas last time, about what i'd do when that day finally comes. i guess i should really try to focus on the present now, instead of what could happen, cuz shit happens and circumstances change, and what i thought would be there is always never really there at all.
Straitjacket Feeling - The All-American Rejects
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feelTry this on, straitjacket feeling
So maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me againTrust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
To take you back now, but you can't winTake back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when that memory slips away
There'll be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
And just the thought of you I fear
It falls away
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
stained with coffee at 9:43 PM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
early-morning football.
well well. barcelona-chelsea had all the finesse of a tavern brawl. at least amidst all the challenges, free-kicks, yellow cards and diving, there was time for a couple of exquisite goals from deco and lampard, as well as a last-gasp thriller from drogba. not the best match i've seen by far, but still an enjoyable one. well that all for now, it's off to school (:
(oh, the score was 2-2, if anyone was wondering.)
stained with coffee at 5:54 AM
