Wednesday, November 15, 2006
distance.
how is it that some old friends can just click even after so long, while some friendships die just afer a few weeks of being on the shelf? i must say that i'm one who takes many friendships for granted, thinking that if they're there at night before i go to sleep they'd still be there in the morning when i wake. but somehow it doesn't work that way, does it? and sometimes distances stretch so far, it's hard to find a way back to where we all were before. so i guess these few months i've been deceiving myself. it really IS mostly my fault, never bothering to really put much effort into maintaining relationships. and now that we're so far apart, it feels so awkward reminding you even of my existence. so i guess some things just have to be buried, some memories forgotten, and i'll just have to put my boots back on and walk on. i always had such fanciful ideas last time, about what i'd do when that day finally comes. i guess i should really try to focus on the present now, instead of what could happen, cuz shit happens and circumstances change, and what i thought would be there is always never really there at all.
Straitjacket Feeling - The All-American Rejects
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feelTry this on, straitjacket feeling
So maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me againTrust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
To take you back now, but you can't winTake back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when that memory slips away
There'll be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
And just the thought of you I fear
It falls away
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
stained with coffee at 9:43 PM
