Thursday, February 02, 2006
disillusioned.
seems like every aspect of my life is just going down the drain now. getting home drained everyday, can't seem to do whatever i like properly anymore. i get more frustration than enjoyment on the tennis courts nowadays, there's always a sense of failure in me after choir practices, i can't seem to play any pieces right at the piano. feels so easy just to give up and say "i quit, i can't do this" but what wil i miss out on if i don't keep going? but sometimes it really seems so pointless.
InvictusOut of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.
William Ernest Henleywell i don't suppose my situation is really THAT drastic, but yeah. maybe i'll just push a little more.
stained with coffee at 7:44 PM
