Monday, October 24, 2005
well well. i think interclass soccer has inspired me. or maybe its just cuz i can't sleep. anw i watched my first full-time soccer match since like. how long ago. chelsea v. everton. quite sad. i still think chelsea should have won. first points dropped since the start of the season. well good job everton. haha. bottom of the table but the way they play, doesn't seem that way.
rafael nadal has come back from 2 sets down to draw level. currently serving at 3-4 in the 5th set in the madrid masters. sadly i have to rely on the website for the live scores.. thanx to EPL action star sports has suspended the telecast. how evil can that be.
haven't done anything useful this weekend. which is really scaring the shit out of me. i mean. HCL o's are next monday.. 7 days left and i'm still so bochup. really really scary. hopefully i can get into the groove during the week. which is, i hope, not too little too late. which really has been the story of my life. all effort put in too little too late. (oh great. from 40-15 to deuce. this is bad.) i guess that's the saddest thing about school ending. really, just looking back on the four years, it's always full of last-minute rushing, never anything properly done. and that's y there's always so much regret.. because almost everything i've done has not been my best. definitely not. (4-4! arr. go nadal.)
and really, trying to sqeeze something extra out of my 4 years now really will just serve to underline my point. it's quite depressing, really. looking back, seeing the things that i wanted to do, and because of all the time-wasting (on what, i have no idea), nothing gets done. (nooo!! 4-5.) sadly, i realise all the time has gone into really useless, evil things. and that's just. sad. really. and maybe the next two years will be different, maybe not. hopefully it will. oh well.
we shall see.
stained with coffee at 1:04 AM
