Wednesday, October 05, 2005
idealism
i hate doing rush work. there's always a certain standard which all work should be at, but i always come away unsatisfied everytime almost any assignment is done. it never ever reaches the perfect standard which i want it to be at. maybe it's because i do everything last-minute, but maybe not. after all, i always end up working so late at night, trying to put the finishing touches on everything, wanting to make it just right.
i suppose idealism is what describes this constant struggle to reach perfection, to create "the ideal assignment". it hasn't helped me much, because everytime i end up frustrated and unable to enjoy even what good there is in my work. even now as i write this, i'm thinking back and asking myself: has there really been any good things in my work?
but the world is never like that. and no matter how much i try, perfection will never land on my window sill. so perhaps it's time to unsubscribe to idealism and embrace something more down-to-earth. it's not about lowering standards to the point of sloppiness, but setting high standards that are acheivable. but if we never push further and harder and want better quality work, how can we ever grow in our abilities and expand our own boundaries?
so should i still continue trying to cram 26 hours into a 24 hour day, just to try to achieve perfection but fall short every time? or should i just take it a little easier?
stained with coffee at 3:42 AM
