Sunday, February 27, 2005
je suis malade
but i don't know what's wrong with me. murr. jus been really lethargic these few days. prone to bouts of depression and frustration over things i normally don't really get pissed about. like ying yong wens and ridiculously unsolvable maths questions and the like. and basically everything else. usually i just say "heck" and move on but nowadays i'm like "screw why am i so useless" and then i just go off somewhere and brood. so this whole weekend i haven't done anything about work so far. it's not even like play too hard neva work hard enough [which is normal weekend routine] cuz now my comp is down and i'm using my dad's laptop. it's never play never work just sit around and feel pissed. but at least i've sorta managed some other stuff larh. like playing my out-of-practice piano [i have a repretoire of 1 fluent piece haha] and going running. its quite surprising how much you can push yourself when you're feeling down lolx.
well anyway. nothing of interest has really happened these days. commenced my vocal lessons with mr toh. hmm. seems like i've really been doing quite a lot of stuff wrongly ><". but i can hit an F!! wahahaha. means i have almost 2 octaves worth of chest voice. haha. syf is sort of around the corner. but i feel like i haven't done much as an SL. maybe i'm too nice or something haha. keep saying "please do this" and "please do that" but nobody really cares and i don't wanna repeat over and over again cuz we'll just waste time and we'll not get anything done. maybe i should really change my mindset. and like. really drill them. even though that's evil. okay fine so people here reading my blog won't really be interested in all this stuff right. anyway. just hope we'll be able to do fine. and not forgetting the int'l comp ><". so much work to do. guess i'll better get to it.
stained with coffee at 6:20 PM
